soundtrack,

Just had a great idea! so people blog with pictures words, videos what not.

i've always imagined that there was music playing in the background of my life.

i'll break out in song at random times, ill know the lyrics to the most random songs.

so...in light of all this, i've decided to make my blog more of a diary with a soundtrack, songs and lyrics with every entry.

k. so here's one of the most beautiful songs i've ever heard, with some of the best lyrics EVER.

its about being torn, having to choose, and losing something no matter what...or whom...you choose.


my favorite part:

but then what kind of scale
compares the weight of two beauties
the gravity of duties
or the ground speed of joy?
tell me what kind of gauge
can quantify elation?
what kind of equation
could i possibly employ?
and you'll never know, dear
just how much i loved you
you probably think this was
just my big excuse
but i stand committed
to a love that came before you
and the fact that i adore you
is just one of my truths


Its...for lack of a better word...haunting

I mean...who writes like that nowadays?

without further ado...here ya go

memories...

It seemed to him that all his life he had followed the ideals that other people, by their words or their writings, had instilled into him, and never the desires of his own heart. Always his course had been swayed by what he thought he should do and never by what he wanted with his whole soul to do. He put all that aside now with a gesture of impatience. He had lived always in the future, and the present always, ALWAYS had slipped through his fingers.

somehow i came across this song again after 4 years



...i just realized today that im never ever going to be able to forget you.


...but i think i also healed a little bit more today, the good kind of healing.

no more jeff, no more. its time.

rock and roll

spent the day with the best friend.

for lent he's giving up sex, masturbation, red meat, and alcohol....


...good luck

took his class and caught up with some cg head...theres some healing there :)

ate korean barbecue, and had adventures on the way there. we need to start recording our car rides

watched streetfighter legend of chun li and wasted 2 hours of my life...horrible movie

went broomballing and scored a kick ass goal feeling like a filipino wayne gretzky

met up with som chapman college friends and listened to some good music.

on that note here's one that stuck with me



He’s been waiting around for the weekend
Figuring which club to sneak in
Fancy drinks and fifty-dollar cover charge
Lately it’s been a big hassle
Heineken and New Castle
So make sure he’s fitting in and living large
Disregard the lies that he will tell
and what he’s probably like 'cause
It's not hard his charm is gonna
Get him through the night


If he wants to rock he rocks
If he wants to roll he rolls
He can roll with the punches
Long as he feels like he’s in control
If he wants to stay he stays
If he wants to go he goes
He doesn’t care how he gets there
Long as he gets somewhere he knows oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na
ah na na na na na na na na na na na

See her heavy make up and cut t-shirt
Every girl out wants to be her
But they look the same already why adjust
Reading the magazine secrets
Forgetting the topical regrets
If she comes home all alone the nights a bust
It’s a must the swivel in her hips
And the look she gives
It’s all her trust if only in the morning
She knew where she lived


'Cause If she wants to rock she rocks
If she wants to roll she rolls
She can roll with the punches
Long as she feels like she’s in control
If she wants to stay she stays
If she wants to go she goes
She doesn’t care how she gets there
Long as she gets somewhere she knows oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na
ah na na na na na na na na na na na

And in a wink they’re on the brink
From drink to drink and at the bar
With cash to blow
From shot to shot it’s getting hot
Advance the plot to see how far
It’s gonna go
All depends so ditch the friends
And grab a cab
Another chance for cheap romance
Doesn’t count cause the room is spinning
Nothing to lose tonight they both are winning
And they fall in love as they fall in bed
They sing

If they want to rock they rock
If they want to roll they roll
They can roll with the punches
Long as they feel like they're in control
If they want to stay they stay
If they want to go they go
They don’t care how they get there
Long as they get somewhere they know oh no

goodnight world.

man i wish i had a camera

so i can start taking pictures too! or maybe ill just use my cameraphone
anyway 2 day started of pretty good heard "dont look back in anger"by oasis which is an amazing tune. i swear that i really only work for about 4 hours out of my actual work day, which means that it goes by unbearably slow.

had the task of putting away a bunch of shit in storage today. that sucked ass.

it strengthens my resolve that i really should find a new job so i wont get stuck in a rut, and grow roots in a place as crappy as gc services.

looking forward to my tax returns because hopefully those funds will tide me over until i find new employment.

i need to start choreographing.

funds are tight, wish i had more money.

i miss chicago.

k thats it, gonna go get ready for breed.

2nd post! 5 minutes after the first one

totally forgot about the other thing that happened to me today.

something scared me and thrilled me at the same time.
something i want but am not ready for.
false alarm but...cant help but be a little dissapointed
because i saw a future that wasnt meant to be...

1st blog ever!

I guess I'm a follower.

Or maybe have a lot of things to say but no one to say it to.

Regardless this is the first of many entries, so lets keep it simple

Today i took a leap of faith...and fell

But it felt good, because i was always afraid of rejection and facing it head on was an accomplishment for me. Its the first step for me to achieve what i want and not just take the easy route because i'm afraid of losing or falling, or failing.

like they say fall down 7 times, get up 8 times.


i just fell, now its time to get back up....






ps. thanks bubbers for the video...signs...

theyre all around me